I totally understand the first half of Psalm 102.
I once read that “sorrow causes deep scars and inevitably writes its story on the suffering heart. We never completely recover from our greatest griefs and are never exactly the same after passing through them.”
I have suffered from anxiety and depression for most of my life. I have a problem with carrying the load of everything I’ve experience in my life: the harm that was done to me and the harm I have done to others.
Depression can be a powerful and crippling thing: it isolates me, it suffocates me, I hear whispers that say, “God doesn’t love you; He’s forgotten you, your worthless, you don’t matter, nothing matters.” My heart becomes filled with bitterness and confusion.
But even during the most difficult times it is possible to bless the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.
Because in the second half of Psalm 102, the psalmist writes,
But you, O Lord, are enthroned forever…
You will arise and have pity
For the Lord builds up Zion;
he appears in his glory;
he regards the prayer of the destitute
and does not despise their prayer.
So this week, no matter what you may be going through, you can find peace in who God is, because he hears the prayers of the destitute. Jesus is with you in the struggle and speaks a better word over your life, “I love you. I have not forgotten you. You matter. I am with you.”
- Amber H.